Yesterday, I couldn’t sleep well at night as I was getting all weird dreams. I got a dream where the whole house is a mess and the bathroom is also so unclean. I am unable to stay in our house and finding options of moving out somewhere. It was a nightmare. I got so scared that I woke up abruptly and didn’t get sleep again for quite sometime.
I guess I have mentioned this in one of my previous posts that I am very particular about keeping the kitchen and the bathroom clean all the time. I clean up the kitchen slab and the gas stove after cooking. I wash the utensils very nicely. I keep the kitchen sink also very clean. Apart from all this, I like things to be kept at a proper place in an apple-pie order. There are little compartments that we have created for different kinds of stuff in the house. I like to keep the things back in place after use. If any place gets messy, I try to clean it up and make it neat.
When I was staying as a paying guest too, I made sure my room looked neat and nice. The landlady there often appreciated the way I took care of the room she provided us. She often said to me, “You room is always neat and clean. I don’t need to worry about it”. And, may be because of the cleanliness she maintained at the house I was able to stay there for 5 long years.
I have a lot of people in my life whom I got bonded to at some or the other point in life. I try to be there for them whenever they need me and also have fun times with them. But, when it comes to staying over at someone’s place I am not so comfortable. I like to go back to our place at night and relax at home rather than stay at somebody else’s place. If I see somebody’s house is really nicely kept, I don’t mind staying over, but otherwise I prefer not 😀
Before meeting S and getting married to him, I strongly wished for something. I wanted my life-partner to understand my cleanliness and neatness habits and totally respect them when we stay together. I am glad that S understands me well in this respect and does his best to keep things nice and neat. I am so thankful to God for that.
But, don’t know why, sometimes I dread that I might be put into a condition where the house will be untidy and my living will get difficult. Yesterday night was one of those times 😀 I know I should just let go and not worry about the future 🙂 Things will be taken care of!